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Dinosaurs & Pie.

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 00:43:01 GMT

I love both. Yey.

o__o.

Let's reflect a bit on Valentine's Day:
            Valentine: Daviiiiiiid.
             :D.

I don't like o.o stupid holidays, however, I do appreciate *__* how cheap candy is after the fact. :3.

So once upon a time I stared at this boy a lot for ever. o.o. And now I've finally spoken to him. :D. How exciting!

I can't wait until college.
            UB: accepted
            Binghamton: accepted

What else.. blah blah blah.

Boys are dumb. Why can't I find a guy? :(. The end. It's hard to watch everyone in the world with their pie as I wait and wonder in solitude. :3.

XD. Okay that's all. :].

Dear Life...

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 03:08:22 GMT

Good game.
Good fucking game.

Disillusioned.

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 03:05:59 GMT

The story of my life. GG.

@ THE ARMORY, didn't get 10. What a surprise. Didn't even do well. All the girls that were super went to PV camps and are in PV clubs. Stfu. I care. D:. Anyways, whatever. XD. AND instead of doing great things, I just strained/pulled my hip flexor and killed my shins. FUCK YEAH. :D.

Also, why do all guys like girls like #? I am unlike #. It is a pity. Maybe I should be more like #. :T. /considers.

My school is shady. Drugs, alcohol, violence. +sex and we win. :D. OH WAIT, THAT HAPPENS OODLES. JK. WE WIN.

SIDE NOTE: Why can't I be happy too T_TTTTTTTTTTTTT?

Also, I'm really glad that no one calls me. T_T. I called @@@ like 200000 times and @@@ is 0/200000, same with texts. T_T.
/siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh. D:. I am simply not in demand.

&pie.

Here is a song that reflects my life:

L.A.X. - Forget You

Let me say this face to face
Before you walk away from me
Listen up, baby
You know, things ain't gonna change
I love you but she's in the way
Where does that leave me?
I'm a mess, so wrapped up in you
And there's nobody else for me
Gave you my heart, I am so confused
But I keep telling myself

Forget you
That's all I wanna do
I gotta face the truth
Cause this just ain't no good for me
Forget you
I really wish I could get you off my mind
As hard as I may try I can't
Forget you

I just gotta forget you

Baby, here's where I went wrong
Thinkin' I could have you
Even though I knew the truth
You were with somebody else
Don't mean no disrespect
But she, ain't got nothing on me
I'm a mess, wish that I could get over you
But my heart's telling me to

Forget you
That's all I wanna do
I gotta face the truth
Cause this just ain't no good for me
Forget you
I really wish I could get you off my mind
As hard as I may try I can't
Forget you

They think we're different but then I
And you and I will never be
And that's what is killing me
Best thing for me to do is go and find somebody new
But that won't happen 'til I forget you

Once Upon a Cornell Meet...

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 04:41:17 GMT

I thought I could get 10 feet for some reason because practice went well. Turns out, I suck at everything aka vaulting. I only got 9. D:. Anyways, opening heigh was 7'0" and I cleared that.. and cleared 8'0". Then 8'6" was being a douche. I knocked off the bar 2/3 times and finally got over on my last attempted. Then, I got over 8'6" and 9'0" but not 9'6". Why do I fail so badly? XD. Total Number of Vaults: 10.
In the end, I got 5th place. The girl in 4th place complimented me too. XD. She also recommended that I not come in at 7'0"

SIDE NOTE:

[00:20] Davii: not yet, i did get your letter just today though. xD
[00:20] MLE: good
[00:20] MLE: did you hate it
[00:20] MLE: XD
[00:20] MLE: i cant remember what i wrote
[00:20] Davii: i loved it. with every breath i took, i also took in some of your fragrance.
[00:20] MLE: LOOLLL
[00:20] MLE: smells nice huh
[00:20] MLE: :D
[00:20] MLE: or
[00:20] MLE: did you not like it
[00:20] MLE: cos that would suck
[00:20] MLE: lol
[00:21] Davii: for some reason, it made me want to sex.
[00:21] MLE: LOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLL
[00:21] MLE: PLEASE TELL ME AGAIN.
[00:21] Davii: IT MADE ME WANT TO SEX.
[00:21] Davii: XO

2008 RESOLUUUUUUUUUTIONS.

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 08:05:09 GMT

Dear 2008,
Stop being a fucking dick. I hate you already. GTFO.
Sincerely, MLE

P.S. Where the fuck is 2009?

JUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSTTTT KIDDING. :).

1   Stop trying to save the world. Really. Humanity is not grateful.
2   Stop being a bitch. Honesty hurts and people are pussies.
3   Think positively. LOLSWHAT.
4   Finish the year with AT LEAST a 90 in physics. Won't happen.
5   Graduate. Duh.
6   Drink oodles and oodles of water. Ehh...
7   LEARN2THINK. XD. Play it up.
8   I has no more ideas. Maybe I'm just fucking awesome. Fuck yeaaaaaaaah and maybe this one will just be "DON'T BE EMO." XD. Yeah. Okay. LEARN2CONFIDENCE. Aka, what the hay. I'm pretty fucking wonderful. Je le sais. :D.

ALSO, I denied alcohol about 18 times today. Be proud. I'm friggen sobaaaaaaa.

PEACE.

FREAK YEAH?

I LOVE: David, David, Debra, @@@.

Life is a bitch.

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 02:35:23 GMT

Disclaimer: I'm in a ridiculous mood. So, if you don't want to hear me bitch about a lot of things, don't read this entry. It's just that simple. P.S.: If you're a boy, GTFO, I hate you.

I'm really such a fool. Boys are boys and boys are always dicks. Why don't I learn from anything in the world? Those are like... the rules of the world. So the law of the land is: boys are boys and boys are always dicks. :). Yet , I still fell for it. I always fall for stupid shit. Anyways, a person told me to write a blog (about her) because I am currently very frustrated. And it would have been even better if I wrote this about 20 minutes earlier because I was pretty angry at everything. But now, I'm just frustrated, mostly at myself.

So once upon a time, a person liked another person and it seemed like the another person liked the person too. Unfortunately, boys are dicks and always just lead people on. Sadly, a person fell for another person's tricks and sadness happened! So there you have it, I'm not the only one to get trapped into the tricks of stupid boys. And at first a person was mad at another person, specifically, I think. But now, a person is mad at the whole world and then some. Even those little silly martians on Jupiter. :(. Sadness!

I don't really understand what goes on inside a boy's head. I already told the boy a thousand fucking times not to play the nice boy and just tell me straight up. But no, the law of the land applies here (see above for details). Also, I'm really kind of stupid for thinking ANYTHING could come out of nothing. I just met the freaking boy. Ya, a kiss was exchanged or something but really... a relationship? LAWLS NO. I was so convinced he was this wonderful, spectacular person. But nope! JUUUUUUUUUUUUST KIDDING. I'm a boy. I'm a dick. Not to mention, I love them, too. Fucking pie.

Regardless, I don't blame the boy for being a boy and playing the nice card and giving me reasons about distance problems, etc etc etc. I'm just mad at myself for believing in things he said. For thinking something, anything, would happen. I'm just an idiot.

Oh, to top it off... I even thought, "Hey, this boy seems really nice. I would feel really comfortable trying alcohol for the first time around him", "Oh wow, he's kind of attractive, I would definitely consider going to ball if I invited him.", "Yay, what a wonderful boy. I'm really glad I kissed him." and "I really want to see this boy again because he seems promising." SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIKE.

I'm a fool for having hope for anything going on in my life. I'm a fool for thinking a boy, like him, would like me. I'm a fool for thinking he could satisfy anything in my life. I'm a fool for even doing anything with him in the first place. I'm a fool for trying to make something happen. Straight, I'm a fool for being alive.

I got into Binghamton. Good fucking job. Like I really want to go to college, right? Yay.

Also, I keep on thinking something will happen between @@@ and I. As if we could rekindle old feelings or some shit. I keep on falling for it too. I'm just a fucking idiot. Fuck my life, son, because shit won't happen.

Anyways, I have a track meet at Hamilton tomorrow. I swear to life, I was in SUCH a good mood earlier. But life is a little bitch. And now, I'm in.. not such a good mood. :). I'm probably going to do horrible at the meet; I don't even think I care anymore. I just don't.

FYA.

I love shopping.

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 23:48:07 GMT

I've never been one to be like <3 SHOPPING, <3 MALL but this year especially the tables have turned. ZOMGS, THE TURNING OF TABLES. WHAT WILL I DO? But anyways, shopping gets my mind off of things and it's a nice day. So, after a ridiculous amount of hills and a long run around the block, I went to the malllllll. <3. I got there around 1 or so and met up with KRISTOPHER AND KEVIN <3 <3 <3 <3 <3. Just kidding. But they are pretty super. But yeah, I met up with them in the arcade and Kris owned me in Tekken 5. XD. And I lost three of Kevin's tokens to the game where you put in one of your tokens to make other tokens fall and stuff. I'm a sucker for that game. Blah blah blah. We had oodles of giggles and such. Whatever. Anyways, I spent a total of 70$. :D.

    From least expensive to most expensive, tax included:

          Medium Curly Fries from Arby's™:                   1.61
          3 packs of hair clippies from H&M:                  3.24
          A pair of athletic pants from Forever 21:         6.23
          A pair of short shorts from Abercrombie:        7.18
          2 mugs from the Disney Store:                       8.08
          A pair of jeans from 5-7-9:                           10.39
          3 pairs of jean capris from Charlotte Russe:      12.22
          A bag from ALDO:                                           21.58

                                                       TOTAL:           70.53 :D

What the hell. I am friggen wonderful. But yeah exercising mad hard is a good feeling. And shopping helps get "the boy" issues off of my mind. :). I really need to get over that sometime. XD. Seriously. What is going on. :P. Besides, if he actually did, shit would have already happened by now. But what people don't realize is that I'm freaking awesome. I'm just straight chill. :3. <3.

Peace.

Happy Christmas.

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 02:59:59 GMT

So, once upon a time, silly things happened between this boy and I. A boy I only met that same day, too! I'm attracted to this specific boy also and I thought he was attracted to meeeeeeeeeee and so I also thought that something silly was going to happen between us. Unfortunately after an ENTIRE FRIGGEN WEEK of chaos and madness, it's been decided that nothing will happen on either sides of the party because of the distance between us. Lul. So basically the only thing that's going on between us is distance. NIIIIIIIICE. It's not even like there's no attraction or interest on a side because I THINK there is. The issue this time, and in a previous time, is fucking geographic location. Why is that always a problem? Why does that always happen to me? Fuck that son. It's actually kind of sad because there was interesttttttttttttt, I think. Why do I never get the boy? Oh wait, that's right. It's because I fail hard. Also, I actually think I'm a pretty wonderful person. I make people laugh, I'm not a complete eyesore. I mean, what the pie? But of course, it's always location. Fuck location. And for some reason, I feel kind of comfy with the boy? I mean, I've only met him once but I feel like I could trust him oodles. Maybe that's only because right now, I have this inflated image of him. Though, I'm sure if I met him again, I would realize that my "image" of him is completely false. AND I WOULDN'T BE SO HUNG UP ON THIS SITUATION. LIFE WOULD BE FRIGGEN GREAT. Unfortunately, again, shit won't happen. I probably won't meet him for a million years. Fuck yeah.

Anyways, Christmas tomorrow but then I have track for the next forever and a half so... bleeeeeh. I also have to do oodles and oodles of homework. Freaking pie! Also, I've been super considering indulging in alcohol during any New Year celebration. But I know I won't. But I've considered it like every second of my day. It's okay though because I don't need alcohol to make me wonderful. I'm already freaking wonderful as it is. BUT WHO KNOWS. MAYBE THAT'S NOT ENOUGH SINCE I CAN'T GET A BOY TO M'AIMES. Freaking A BCDEFGEUIOFAISOJF. Anyways, life is okay.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas. I'm going to fucking own at the Hamilton meet on Friday. I'm also going to blog again come New Year. :D. Expect oodles.

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EDITED:

Here is a story.

The Tree and the Little Red Bird

Once upon a time, there was a tree that was super pretty and had a bright star on top. One fine winter day, an old man appeared out of the blue and asked the tree if it wanted to turn into a beautiful Christmas tree. Chuckling, the old man raised his axe. After all, trees can’t talk, right? Besides, the old man was only joking. Suddenly, a red bird flew onto the man's head, pecking viciously. The old man flailed his arms and yelled for help. Sadly, he was the only one in the dense forest. The man fell to the ground and started to crawl away, leaving his axe on the snowy floor. The little red bird perched itself on the branch of the pine. "Do you mind if I start a family here?" the little bird chirped. The star on the pine began to glow brightly. The bird flew off and chirped a sweet little song. It began to gather sticks and leaves in its small beak. Flying to and from the pine tree, a nest began to form. After that, the red bird went off to search for a mate. Unfortunately, this was quite a daunting task since it was already mid-winter.

One day while searching, the little bird heard a feeble cry from behind a bush. He flew closer to the bush and discovered a wounded bird. Like him, this little bird was red. Helping her to her feet, he quickly realized that her wing was wounded. He convinced her to join him in his newly made nest and at least stay with him until she was healed. Complying, the two birds staggered a little and flew to the tree. But to their surprise, the tree was missing. (DUNDUNDUN.) The little wounded bird didn't have a lot of energy left and was already weak from the injury. She had lost most of her energy from flying to the missing tree.

From the corner of his eye, the little red bird noticed footsteps to and from the tree. He also saw small branches broken from the pine he called home because the man was obviously dragging the pine behind him. Out of fury, the young, naïve bird flew atop the remaining tree stump, closed his eyes, and waved his wings angrily until he could no longer move. Because he was flapping so furiously, one of his feathers flew out of his wings and landed on top of the stump. Suddenly, a new pine tree grew in its place already equipped with a nest inside. The little bird quickly helped the wounded bird to their new home.

From that day on, the two little red birds lived in that pine tree happily together. And the star atop the tree got brighter every day.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 05:13:30 GMT

It's not really you, I think. Because right now, anyone could take me away. It just depends who wants me, too. Then maybe I'll learn to feel the same way.

I want you in my life but then again, I don't.

I close my eyes and I think of what just happened. Then I giggle inside becuase I know it won't happen again... right?

Someone prove me wrong.

P.S.: Boys should always be used as pillows. :D.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 01:46:06 GMT

I changed my mind (life).

    There are too many unworthy people in the world; it has overwhelmed the hope I harbor in my heart for the world. Get AIDS, be senile. I don't really think I care anymore. I really... just don't. Up until now life and the people I have encountered have rearranged my idea of the world. And until anyone else can prove me otherwise, I will remain selfish. After all, in all times of my life, my care and my concern has been denied. When I try to look out for a person's best interests, I only get retaliation and pure apathy. Thank you friends for being complete dicks. Yay.
    By selfish, I also include my family. I think I'll start anew. Today is the eighth of December 2007. I still have a bit to go in my life despite my desire to die early (no, I'm not emo. kthx.). Today will be a new day I hope. Maybe if I overlook the aspects of my life that have shown me that people really don't deserve anything like my concern or sympathy. Hrm...
    How about this? Today, I want to live. Today, I'd like to be happy, I think. Also, I'm not alive so I can find true love. I highly doubt such an idea exists. Anyway, I think I want to be a teacher. I feel like if I was a teacher, I could accomplish more things. Perhaps I could even influence someone. ('sif anyone wants me as an influence. Lul.) Or maybe I should be self-interested and not be a teacher.
    Also, none of this (anything I'm typing atm) is coherent or relevant to anything else. It's grand. Maybe all I want to do is influence people.
    Maybe that's the key. Today, I want to live.
    Let's see. I'll try to stop to expecting something out of life just by following the rules. I'm going to step out of the box a little for a while. I'm going to test out the waters of life and see what happens. I think I want to stop living life how I "should" be living. I think I want to stop being absolutely ridiculous about everything.
    Hate is for people who don't have enough time or space to get to know themselves. Hate is for people who blame others for their own misfortune. Hate is something I don't want to do anymore. 'kbye.

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